You found me in the rain, crying, with an empty heart and a homeless soul.
You took my heart into your hands…(You are safe…)
Your arms around me kept me warm…(I’m here for you…)
You made me feel like home…(You don’t need their love…)
I was with you, I was so deep…I forgot the world and its deceiving smiles. Only with you, only for you, you were the answer to…everything…(I’m the only therapy you’ll ever need…)
No one knew the struggle behind the mask. I kept it locked, every moment of falling…(They’ll never understand…)
You fulfilled a void…just to create a larger one…(I’m the only one who can make you feel complete…)
So I tried to escape more than once, but I came back defeated…(I’ll make you feel loved…)
Give me back my life. My health, my beauty. My self respect. My independence.
(It’s too late for you…)
Don’t come near me offering this false feeling of security. I’ve never been so insecure.
(Let me comfort you…the way I only know…)
I’m facing the world without you. Don’t stand in my way…(This cruel world will tear you apart without my support…)
I was crying when I met you. Rejected and alone. And you made this solitude deeper and so much more painful. I am healing.
(You need me, you wont make it by yourself…)
(I’m your healer, your comforter, your love…)
No. You are only my eating disorder. And I’m replacing you with self respect, peace of mind and faith.
And maybe…I’ll learn to love myself again some day.
NOTE: This post is dedicated to every brave heart fighting an eating disorder. Beautiful warrior, you are loved more than you’ll ever know.