51eaf1b9d4e2f5d658f9f0fc3ab92040--female-clown-costume-clown-costumesI just made the ugliest cake ever. I’m looking at it right now, trying to find something nice, anything at all. Nothing, it’s horrible. I wanted a blueberry heart and it looks like…like a bucket of grapes ready to burst out.

I cried in front of the ugliest cake ever. My mascara created dark traces on my face. I have whipped cream on my hair and something sticky…probably a little piece of that pineapple that made the whole kitchen sticky. I became a fruit salad…

The dirty dishes gathered together in an attempt to destroy the last trace of dignity in me. They succeeded. I gave up when I saw the mountain full of left overs. I wanted to run away. I opened Facebook in a desperate attempt to convince myself that these things happen to all of us…

Nah…Little delicate gift boxes wrapped in red ribbons! A friend who looks like a model just bought some fantasy pair of shoes. Yep, they have wings! Perfect kids, who never get sick, never throw tantrums, never say “I hate you!”. Love till the end of days with sweet notes and romantic gestures!

And me…with sticky hair full of whipped cream, with dripping mascara and a horrible bucket-look-alike-cake!

And I…I love him…

And I…I understand…

Why he…just…stopped…

It’s getting late. My horrible cake sleeps carelessly in the fridge. I did the dishes and I closed my Facebook. I threw away my expectations. Tomorrow I may throw away the bucket-look-alike-monster. Who knows, maybe I’ll even get rid of the whipped cream from my hair.

Or not…

(Or I’ll just go to him, with the ugliest cake ever, sticky hair and dripping mascara and I’ll innocently ask him “Do I look pretty?” And if he says “U-hum” without even giving me a glance, like he always does, the look-alike-bucket-monster will finally have a clear destination…)

 

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30 thoughts on ““U-hum”…

  1. You don’t need to wear any kind of makeup to look amazing. I’m willing to bet that you are the most beautiful fruit salad in the world and that you taste good too. I’m sure that the cake will taste yummy. If I could come and help with your dishes and stuff I would. Take care.

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    1. This is very sweet of you, thank you! Now, after a long, hot shower, nothing seems invincible anymore. Just got a bit overwhelmed before. Thank you so much for being so supportive, you’re the best!

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  2. Expectations we put on others are doomed to unhappiness…. believe in yourself , don’t compare to others, especially their Facebook β€œversion”. We’re surrounded by fake lives, fake success, fake happiness.
    Look what you have, and see if something positive is in there. And start loving that.
    πŸ€—πŸ€—πŸ€—πŸ€—

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    1. Thank you, what a sweet thing to say! You brought a big, fruity smile on my face πŸ˜€ Have a wonderful day and thank you so much for this lovely comment! (And the cake looks better in the morning light πŸ˜ƒ ) ❀️

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  3. Woow. Amazing piece. You keep getting better. No matter how ugly the cake looks it’s still a cake with all those tasty and nice ingredients. My point is-the outward appearance doesn’t matter. This applies to us too. It’s our ingredients;what we are made of that makes us.So keep the cake and enjoy it😍😍😍😍

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    1. You are right and yes, I kept it! Here is a picture of the cake, after decorating it a bit more and with…just a little more love πŸ™‚ https://www.instagram.com/p/Bc11vuzgq4O/?taken-by=claudia_avec_les_miracles
      I introduced it to my guests and one of the comments was “No, it’s not ugly! It looks…psychedelic. Very interesting psychedelic effect!” So, as you can see, I created an “psychedelic cake” :-)))
      Thank you, dearest friend, for always seeing the best in my posts and for encouraging and motivating me to write more!

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      1. I’ve seen it😍😍😍😍😍 goodness!it’s beautiful. You should open a bakeryπŸ˜‚πŸ˜‚πŸ˜‚ I can’t bake anything close to thatπŸ˜‚πŸ˜‚πŸ˜‚

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  4. Expectations are the root of most devastation. Then the absent minded acknowledgement for those that claim to love us, those hurt like the piercing stab of the sharpest knife. We long to be so perfect, like the world we see around us. But, that’s when we must remember….we can’t judge a book by its cover. The prettiest smile, the most perfect child, the best partner in the world….hmmm, online anything can be perfect. But the reality is not usually as nice. The deception is not really meant to hurt us, but rather to protect the ones to claim it.

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    1. Yes, that’s absolutely true, if perfection is our standard, we’re setting ourself to a long path of sufferings…and any virtual-social platform is a world of masks. It’s important to step out from time to time, to fix a cake, to take a long shower, to give a warm embrace, to say the words…this is happiness for me πŸ™‚
      I’m blessed and grateful to have you as my friend, your healing words are a gift from God! Thank you ❀️

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      1. You have been a pure gift to me my friend… Your posts always prompt me to think about things. They push me to look deeper, go beyond just the surface of the words. And I love that. I do pray that my words will continue to be the gift for others the way God intends…. πŸ™‚ Thank you for always being so supportive of me!!! Hugs and love always to you Claudia!!

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