Aligned properly, facing the sun, the jars look colorful and happy. He drew himself the smiling faces, careful about each single detail, for they’re a pure expression of beauty and joy.

He knows about tenderness, the way he learned it all of his life, so, from time to time, he speaks soft words to the happy jars. And when a new one is added to the alignment, he sings a special song of victory.

He’s not afraid to say the words.

I love you when he runs his fingers on the top of his jars, making sure they’re all clean and pretty. He could swear that a smiling face smiles even brighter under his gentle touch.

You’re safe with me when he locks the silver cap of every happy jar, convinced that a sense of entitlement is the guarantee for every meaningful existence.

My sweet darling when colors mix together in wonderful rainbows and the happy jars are simply blooming under his safe guidance.

He’s happy with his happy jars and no one talks about dark fantasies and dirty secrets, and no one even knows…

’cause no one ever cared about those silly, dippy, giddy, pretty happy jars!

But when all butterflies laid breathless, behind the painted glass of happy jars, when painted happy faces were the only witness of the last flinch of those white pairs of wings…

when lifeless eyes contemplate a sun that’s colder than a thousand infernos…

that’s when the world you knew becomes a place of danger.

Because, you know, he still collects them, he still aligns them to face the sunshine. He still draws happy faces, endless rainbows, little pink hearts, making sure that all of his butterflies are perfectly pretty and clean inside of his happy jars.

And now he knows the secret…when they lay motionless, all butterflies turn into heart-shaped diamonds. 

And hearts are just irresistible to this kind of predator, aren’t they?


Note: Yes, it was about the Malignant Narcissist…


All credits for the photo to Jill Wellington from

26 thoughts on “The Collector

    1. Absolutely, everything we write is reflecting our true self. That’s why honesty and openness are so important!
      I appreciate your blog, your work and your writings, thank you so much for reading my post! 🤗

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      1. Awe, your welcome.

        Ever since I began reading your posts, I got excited about what the next one would be about. I also feel a bit of a bond with you since upon mentioning my trauma to you concerning “that certain online entity”, you knew who I was talking about.

        I do remember seeing you on his blog, infrequently, and you were nice, and kept your wits about you, unlike the other commenters. Anyway, one of the reasons I told you about it, is because I wanted to make sure you were not in his clutches, as were so many other women. (Sorry for mentioning this, again. I just wanted to tell you that in thinking about it, I do remember you).

        Have you ever taken creative writing or poetry classes. You express yourself beautifully and are an inspiration to me. Hugs!

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      2. This touched my heart…I felt a bond, a connection with you ever since you first mentioned that painful experience you went through, and I thank God for making you so strong and courageous. I don’t remember commenting on his blog, or maybe it was his initial blog? (not the one he has now)
        I think that, in time, I developed a certain immunity to the Narcissistic charm, but I know how dangerous it can be. I am married to a Narcissist, so nothing surprises me anymore 🙂
        I’m here if you ever want to talk about…you know. My own experience with the Narcissistic abuse made me appreciate the good, the generosity, the kindness in people, more than you can imagine.
        I never took any writing or poetry classes 🙂, my blog was, at first, my way to survive. Then a way to escape…and, finally, as I grew stronger, poetry and metaphors became my way to express all the repressed emotions.
        Thank you with all my heart and soul for being so kind, it means more than I could ever say! ♥️🌹🤗

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  1. Very creative and heartfelt! Within every experience, within the good, and the bad. The soul captures a vivid imagery, and it’s up to the heart. To express the picture, and turn it into a life story! Blessings!

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    1. You’re truly a wizard of words, touching hearts and giving hope and courage to express deep emotions and mesmerizing feelings.
      Thank you! ♥️
      Blessings upon you too, along with my gratitude for every one of your Light giving message!

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  2. Both chilling and beautiful. It reminds me of an image used in Haunter, a ghost story told from the perspective of a ghost. I hope, like in the movie, there comes a time when all the jars break and the butterflies discover new life. 🦋

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    1. I love movies with ghosts, I have to watch Hunter, it sounds like a good one.
      Thank you so much for your heartfelt words! I pray for all the hearts that feel trapped, in one way or the other, to break the chains…Blessings upon you, dear friend! 🙏♥️♥️♥️

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